I got hundreds of people killed trying to prove myself to a man who was just using me to get his son back.

[She says it flatly, looking anywhere but at Saul. He wants to know the worst thing she's ever done? Fine.]

I started a gang war and as soon as I realized what I'd done, I tried to fix it, and all it got me was hours of torture at the hands of a sadist and being kicked out on the street for Batman to find, like a broken toy.

[Isn't that what Sionis wanted her to tell Bruce? To thank him for the playthings.]

When I woke up months later all I could think was that I wished he'd just killed me, so I wouldn't have to live with the guilt.